something I wanted to say about the fact I am an irl.

just because I'm an irl doesn't mean I'm a bad person, or a schizophrenic, or anything of the likes, and you shouldn't treat me differently for identifying with something. I am no different than you are, I just identify with a character, and you don't. and that **definitely** doesn't give you the right to be rude to me, or even leave me over such things. this is very hurtful, especially because this isn't something I can change in 10 minutes. it's really not that hard to just accept I prefer to be referred as british, and that I am referred to as pip pirrup. that is **truly** who I think I am, I'm not just trying to be quirky. reality checking someone who is a da/irl is very harmful. it can cause panic attacks, self injury, etc etc. you aren't doing them a favor, you're just hurting them. you're just making them feel unloved, unseen, and uncared for. I'm speaking from experience too, because I have dealt with the reality checking and reality jolts that people Purposefully forced onto me. It hurts. I've had multiple panic attacks over that shit, and for what? so you could feel like you did something? so you could feel like you're in the right? because you're not. it's not that hard to just refer to someone as a specific character, **really** it isn't. and I'm really sick of people acting like it is. "I'm walking on eggshells around you!!!!" no the fuck you're not. I'm literally just telling you to refer to me as british. that's literally the easiest fucking thing ever. i don't really **care** if people are "uncomfortable" with it, that's not my problem nor is that something I can control. i think it's kinda dumb when people are "uncomfortable", I mean, seriously... how fucking sensitive are you? are you dense? what do you MEAN you're uncomfortable with me simply fucking asking you to refer to me as a character???? snowflake..!!! uh yeah anyways Sorry it just makes me upset... I shouldn't have my friends leaving me and reality checking me and shit just because they're sensitive. and before you pull out the "well you're sensitive for reacting this way to reality checking!!" do you not realize I'm in an active delusion and people are FORCIBLY trying to rip me out of it suddenly? that is so. fucking. painful. that is not comparable to people being "uncomfortable" with referring to me as a specific character, and I'm really sick of acting like it is. you are not valid for being uncomfortable with it. end of story. I do not care about how much backlash I may get for this, JUST FUCKING REFER TO ME AS PIP AND ACCEPT THAT I AM BRITISH. it is so not that hard. 

anyways, that's just about all I had to say. 

it would be greatly appreciated if you don't come contacting me trying to like. canel me or get mad or some shit, because frankly I will mute your dms and ignore it. I do not wanna hear it. whatever you may try to tell me, I've heard it a thousand times. 

- love, philip :33